Let's be realistic

I've been struggling with my reality lately.
I think we often believe what we want to believe about things or people in our lives, because it's often too difficult to face the truth. The truth-to me- often seems overwhelming & paralyzing.

This is why it's so tempting to live in a false reality...it's much more comfortable & safe----more than that....it's controllable. Isn't that what we want? To be in control?
I do.

So, what about the truth sets you free? especially when much of the time it feels overwhelming, paralyzing & often terribly painful.

And, more than that---if the truth really sets you free....why am I so quick to run from my reality & turn to what I want to believe?

I think the thing that's so freeing about the truth is because you actually have no control & it frees you of the responsibility and burden of "perfecting" your life....although I still try like hell to "perfect" my life.

Of course, this idea doesn't really work if you are a relativist, meaning- you believe that all truth is relative.

For now, I'm just trying to come to terms with my reality and trust that someone wiser than me is in control.