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A few months ago, I was deep in a dark pit of depression & just couldn't seem to get a hold of my emotions. I clung to Jesus & as usual....he was faithful. But, the last couple of days I have been asking myself this question: "Can I relate to God outside of crisis in my life"?
It seems that I vascillate between desperately needing him and going before him to just living my life (and he is relatively absent)....Perhaps this is the human condition, but I hate it. I want more for my life. I want more for my soul and spirit. I want to see change, growth, and depth of character that knows what it is to be in constant communion with the Holy Spirit.
It's a goal worth fighting for, I think...

Today I was driving and heard a song that my friend had played for me for the first time a few months back. I was crying a lot those days....I had just been crying & my face was red and puffy. We were driving in her car & she silently reached over and grabbed my hand and pressed play on this song:
It's going to be alright
I can tell by your eyes that you're not getting any sleep
And you try to rise above it, but feel you're sinking in too deep
Oh, oh I believe, I believe that It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright
I believe you'll outlive this pain in you heart
And you'll gain such a strength from what is tearing you apart
Oh, oh I believe I believe that It's going to be alright
When some time has past us, and the story if retold
It will mirror the strength and the courage in your soul
I did not come here to offer you clichÈ's
I will not pretend to know of all your pain
Just when you cannot, then I will hold out faith, for you
It's going to be alright

I remember that moment and I am thankful for it. It gives me faith for what is to come.